Walking Away

Me and a friend were having a deep conversation last night, why is it that people call themselves Christians but do everything of the world? The drinking, smoking, drugs, pre-martial sex... Everything that we were taught to abstain from, and people from Bible college that went and felt God and were moved by God just just married and have kids but go out every night? Where does this come from? Are we as christians so boring that we can't show people that you can still have fun but not having to readjust your standards? Where have we failed that we can't keep Christians to be on fire for God and not to have one foot on each side of the moral line?

On another note, I've really been struggling with a few things lately. I am not of average size, I'm not of normal size either - I have a few extra pounds (or hundred) pounds and I'm trying to find a bridemaid's dress - it isn't going so well. I am very self conscience of that fact and that I want to look super pretty but I don't want to have to search high and low for this dress and put my self-esteem through the masher at the same time. I'm okay with searching for the dress, if I knew where to start. Here's to hoping.

I also got into a fight with a friend - not really a fight fight just I snapped at her because I was having a bad day and now she won't talk to me. I mean I have apologized about 5 times now and she isn't talking to me still. That's fine - I guess but I'm sick of it. If we fight I am always the one that has to say sorry - she never does and today I just feel like telling her to grow up. Yes I screwed up but this silent treatment is getting old. She will deal with other people if they have a problem but I always get the silent treatment. Whatever.. I'm just sick of it. We are supposed to be friends - best ones at that - sure doesn't feel like it.